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BLESSED NEW YR TO ALL!! =)

11:25 PM

3/1/06

Blessed new yr!!yr 2006..oh!im turning 19 in abt 28 days' time.. =( i dun want..i still like being 18..

haha..well..before i cont abt the new yr thingy..let me give a brief summary of what i did..

27/12

uni meta conference day 1..on grace..majority of it is liberty versus legalism..tend to fall into the legalism area..which is a list of "dos and don'ts" for christians..which is totally not the case lah..as in we follow laws and rules not becos we want to gain God's approval..but we follow and obey out of love..which is very diff..we dun nit to gain God's approval cos we already have it..and at times when we sinned, God's grace is there to help us..and also..in the sermon on the mount, God did say that as long as you look at a woman lustfully, you already committed adultery..i mean it only shows us how high God's standard is..and it is impossible for us to achieve that standard..God is saying, "forget it.you can nv reach my standard. but depending on my grace, i still accept you as who you are. i love you for who you are." i think that really speaks to me..cos im a person wanting to seek for spiritual perfection..like i have to really mean what i say when i say "i love God"..but does it mean i dun say it becos i dun think i love Him? or in the case of lets say "i want to worship God"..does it mean i dun think that im worshipping God then i dun sing worship songs?when i prayed and ask shane, he really gave me the insights lah..if at times we feel that we dun love God or dun think that we are worshipping Him, we still sing "i love God" and "i want to worship God"..cos it is to affirm that..it is like saying..i want my family to be saved..but then you think it cant be done..however, we shld not let that negative attitude put us down..we will still say "i can do all things thru Christ who strengthen us" to reaffirm..to use positive words..cos what we say will really affect our actions..this conference reminded me of the above and teaches me more abt grace..

28/12

class BBQ at east coast park!!haha..so fun..

when jasrie, allen and myself arrived at the pit..we saw a grp of ppl under the shelter..they were sitting on the floor and talking..then the 3 of us were minding our own business and start to unpack the food,etc..when i was unpacking halfway, a guy asked me "excuse me..." before he continued, i looked up and saw that this guy was alvin tay!!!i was like surprised!!then he also din know it was me..cos my hair covered my face..haha..so qiao..he was actually wanting to pass us some plastic bags..he was there with his army frens for some lunch and discussion..i was like super surprised!!!he was shocked cum stunt according to what he said..well well..an old old fren..

then actually wanted to leave earlier to go for the uni meta conference..but then at 6pm, the food still not settled yet..so cant go le..

at 8pm plus..Chen Yie, Tze Hui and i were at the BBQ pit..when shi ming suddenly said, "Eileen..dun go to the conference leh..i nit your care" im like -_-"""" WHAT!!!haha..ok..at that pt, quite funny lah..he was drunk lah..and i replied him, "ya ya..im not leaving..go sit down." haha..and then..we finish the food!!except the sotong balls..which seems to always be the food that has the most left over after each BBQ..haha..i was so happy!!yeah!!the food all finished!!

29/12

studied in the day..and evening went to uni meta conference on "Fear that paralyses"..a very convicting sermon..and some of the fears listed on the pp, i had it lah..last time i din realise that those are fears..which i dun dare to admit in front of ppl..but i know i really feared of those things to happen..or to put it more accurately..it is anxieties..yup..a night of breakthrus..thank God!!

31/12

sprained my ankle outside church before miracle service..swollen sia..quite painful..but then after sis jennifer prayed for me..the swelling reduced!sara can be my witness!!haha..praise God!!

1/1

pastor Rony gave a intro to the book of revelation..then this yr..the subsequent sermons will be on the book of revelation..so interesting!!!!!!!finally someone preaching from the book of revelation on end times!!i mean..haha..a topic which im every interested in..woo hoo!and now i finally understand where the mark of the beast 666 came from liao..i look forward to the subsequent sermons!! =)

2/1

leaders' retreat at GCTC..we had a gd time of games and also form the retreta material..which speaks on God's love..the first paragraph already spoke to me le..it is like the words jumped out from the paper and stared at me..then also abt pandy, a ragged doll owned by Pandy..God loves us just like how Pandy love the doll in all its raggedness..this is amazing..i had heard of this love but i din experience it yet..thats what i ticked at the devotional quests behind..i want to experience this unconditional love from God totally..it will definitely change my life..

then shane's farewell party at david hse in the evening..well..shane going army this thurs..oh my..i will really really really miss him!!!!!!!!

so sweet of shane!!he cook pasta for us..of cos..with chef Eileen's help..LOL..and oh my!!!to my surprise, rico can cook as well!!he made mashed potato and garlic bread..i was so so impressed with the 2 guys!!really really impress!!my cell guys can cook!!and david help out too!!haha..

at the end of makan, shane washed rico's, rachel's and mine feet..just like Jesus who washed His disciples' feet..at that momt, i felt so pai seh to let shane wash my feet..really..but i just let him wash..washing feet is a very humbling act..and then in turn, the cell share how shane had encouraged them thruout this 1 yr plus time..then at the end of it, me and rachel washes shane's feet..cos Jesus' disciples also washed Jesus' feet..which is again a humbling act..and also it really speaks volume abt servanthood..to serve one another..then after that rico annointed shane with oil..and we end the session by cutting of a cake..really had a great time!and really thank David for being such a great host!!God bless him and his family!!

3/1

sch at 2pm..until 5pm..that Tze Hui took my sandals and wear..which is like my shoe size is much bigger than hers.. -_-""""" this girl will do weird stuff..and chen yie took a foto of it somemore.. -_-"" which is like even weirder..nvm..weird ppl do weird stuff like the above..haha.. =P

then went for leaders conference at LET..sis gayl asked me to take the attendance for her..haha..she is so cute man!!i love her!!!!!we had a great buffet!!and we had an update of where the church money goes to..and also church camp next yr 27-30 nov..wah man!!with the adults!!that is like..haha..dunno what it is like lah..but im pretty excited abt it!!ya ya!!can accomodate 800 ppl!!that wld be fun!!and speedlight camp in june!!wah man..next yr i will have 3 camps..if sch schedule dun clash lah..that is so so fun!!!!then brother andy drove me home..tml having bio IT test..which focuses alot on pracs..shld be all rite ba..

well..shane will be leaving on this thurs!!!!!!!!my gosh!!shane!!i will miss you!!!!personally, shane has been a real real dedicated leader..somehow a bit same frequency lah..and im always inspired by His relationship with God lah..sometimes he will just flip to the bible and told us insights that he got from his QT or reading of christian literature..and he is very patient and a gd listener..whenever i got face some problems, he immediately identify the root cause and how i felt and think leh..wah man..this is amazing!!and he can use words to express it completely how i felt and tot even better than me!!literature student lah..haha..well shane..probably in army there will be a lot of temptations..i really prayed that your relationship with God can still be as close or even closer after your army..and the first love will be there..shane!!i hav faith in you that you can do it!!and that His spirit will empower you!!way to go shane!!!

haha..then now having rico and rachel as asst cell leader..yup..really glad to hav rico with us..with the fact that he used to be a cell leader in tampines speedlight..and also he can entertain ppl!!thats is quite crucial also..haha..cos can hav fun!!yeah yeah!!looking forward to working with him!! =)

updated 4/1./06, 1.09am

May Christ through your faith [actually] dwell (settle down, abide, make His permanent home) in your hearts! May you be rooted deep in love and founded securely on love, that you may have the power and be strong to apprehend and grasp with all the saints [God's devoted people, the experience of that love] what is the breadth and length and height and depth [of it]; [That you may really come] to know [practically, through experience for yourselves] the love of Christ, which far surpasses mere knowledge [without experience]; that you may be filled [through all your being] unto all the fullness of God [may have the richest measure of the divine Presence, and become a body wholly filled and flooded with God Himself]!

Ephesians 3:17-19

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