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Spiritual apathy is just like gangrene..

11:36 PM

4/12

long time din blog..lazy lah..haha..

hmm..a few weeks ago, shane pass me a book on spiritual apathy..din really read it cos i was reading the biography of John Sung.. then ytd nite, shane and i were talking spiritual apathy as well..initially..i dun even know the meaning of apathy..then as i read the book..i know what does spiritual apathy means liao..

no wonder i have not been growing these few mths in my relationship with God..i can lead worship, i can teach, i can go miracle service every sunday, prayer mtg every week..BUT so what?..they do not mean anything if i dun grow in my relationship with God..i have been asking myself, "is it that i din pray or read the bible enuff?" "is it that my heart is hardened?".. the answer is yes..but the above are just symptoms..not the cause..the ROOT CAUSE is spiritual apathy..bro Sam during today's sermon also talk abt this..as and after he spoke, i reflected..and thats was why i was so quiet in church today..which is VERY abnormal..it is like..everything just piece together..ytd read of it..today sermon talk abt it..and cell grp we were discussing it..i have been searching for an answer..and after wondering around in the wilderness for so long, i finally found the root cause..really thank God for that..

spiritual apathy is something like spiritual indifference..for eg..lets take john 3:16..most of us are so familiar with this verse..probably heard it a hundred times..that our reaction whenever this verse is mentioned is :" ai yah..this verse..so familiar already..sian lah..boring.." compared this reaction to the first time you heard of this verse..is there a very vast diff? for me, there is..i rem that when i heard of this verse was when i was in pri 3..i was so filled with awe and amazemt..but now..when i read it..the verse become so familiar to me that it does not have any impact on me already..my heart is not opened..i approach the Scriptures with a mindset of familiarity..so it hinders me from learning new things from the Word of God..i lost the awe for the word of God..im not like a little child in God's eyes anymore..but then more of a proud, arrogant, a miss "know-it-all" so to speak..can recite bible verses..blah blah blah..but im more like the Pharisees..so hypocritical..obeying laws, following commandmts, trying to live a "perfect" life..like what shane shared today, God knows that we cant be perfect so we can forget abt the idea of being perfect..we just cant..cos we are only humans..then how?that leaves us hopeless?

of cos not..thats when God's grace comes in..it is His grace that we are saved..it is His grace that although we are mere human beings and we still sin, He willingly forgives if we ask Him for forgiveness..thats God grace..what is grace? simply it means un-derserved mercy..oh God..fill me with awe for Your word again..revive me Lord..

Time posted :12.37am..5/12/05

Spiritual apathy is like gangrene..

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