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A leap of faith..

2:40 AM

17/1

well..met her after sch today..for those who dunno..she was my quite gd fren during my sec 1 yr in Ang Mo Kio Sec..well..for those who knows the story..you all know what happen..for those who dunno..too long to type out here..so shall not elaborate..just know that mayb or mayb not I have a misunderstanding with her..and I cried for days over this loss of friendship..if it is a misunderstanding, I will want to apologise to her..if it is not a misunderstanding, I still forgive..and also..this matter had happen so long ago liao..it is like abt 6 yrs already? And all these 6 yrs, I dun have the courage to mit her up and clear this matter with her..this matter kind of like affect my other friendships..cos of my strong defence barrier..well..of cos have to be careful of what kinds of friends you share your secrets or deep things with..but mine is to the extend of..how to say..hard to trust other ppl..

all rite..becos of this matter, I decided to transfer sch..i gave all sorts of excuses when ppl ask me why I changed sch..i gave excuses like..cos im shifting house,etc..but the real reason is becos I dun want to get reminded of this sad past by staying in that sch..i really took a big step of faith to decide to mit her today..my heart was like pumping so hard..cos she suddenly contacted me..and asked to mit me..she called me abt 2 or 3 weeks ago to arrange for a mit up..but I told her I cant..cos common test week,etc..then after that she asked to mit me after common test..so with a lot of courage, I decided to mit her..cos I think I have to face it..ya..after so many donkey yrs then I decide to face the matter..but after all, I still face it..haha..*a pat on the back*

well..im not angry anymore lah..really..but just disappointed abt what happen today..i tot it was just a purely catching up session..but din know she also intro me to a company..they have a system which is something like Multi-Level Marketing(MLM)..but not exactly MLM..so it kind of like trigger off my tots..she want to mit me up..is it becos she want to intro this MLM to me or just a pure catching up session?

Initially I told chen yie and tze hui that I will be miting her up..they sort of like warn me there must be a reason why she wanted to mit me..but I chose not to be skeptical..i chose to mit her with an open heart..i chose to trust her again..although it may take some time for the trust to be build, im willing to try..trusting God to have a breakthrough in this area as well..

Oh well..lets talk abt lighter stuff..haha..nowadays I think I fell in love with English oldies..top of the world by carpenter, all out of love by air supply, oh carol, never on a Sunday, green green grass of home, etc..haha..my mum trigger it off loh..i was singing to tze hui and chen yie today at lecture hall..both of them cant stand it..cos my singing too nice!!LOL..

Got to know have to help out for NYP open hse as counselors on thurs and fri..wah sian..i tot so late no news means dun need help out..but no!!still nit to help..tot can slp at home and rest..by nvm..i will serve with joy!!hehe..heard that there will be freebies.. =P

Top Of The World - Carpenters

Such a feelin's coming over me
There is wonder in most every thing I see
Not a cloud in the sky got the sun in my eyes
And I--won't be surprised if it's a dream.

Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me
And the reason is clear
It's because you are here
You're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen

I'm on the--top of the world lookin'
Down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found
Ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world

Something in the wind has learned my name
And it's tellin' me that things are not the same
In the leaves on the trees
And the touch of the breeze
There's a pleasin' sense of happiness for me.

There is only one wish on my mind
When this day is through
I hope that I will find
That tomorrow will be
Just the same for you and me
All I need--will be mine if you are here.

I'm on the--top of the world lookin'
Down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found
Ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world

I'm on the--top of the world lookin'
Down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found
Ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world

updated on 18/1, 2.48am

posted by cookoxt31 on 2:40 AM
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