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Vex + Insecure + etc..

2:57 AM

3/10

been abt a month ever since i last updated..well..my post title kind of summarise what im feeling now..

Thru today's incident, my insecurity in a particular area was revealed to me..wah seh..it is like a slap on my face..i nv knew i cld be that insecure and care so much abt what ppl think of me..maybe with regards to work and serious thing?usually when im with frens and family, im not like that ba..

the whole day i had been thinking abt this..tmr going down to MC, so i cook "kou rou bao" and Margaret(Peter LS' Sister) will be bringing the handmade bao from the market near her place..seriously, when you are not in a gd mood, dun cook..the food wun turn up to mit your expectation..actually was thinking just nice, i can vent off my frustration thru cooking(usually i do that when i dun feel like telling anybody my prob yet) and can let the MC peeps try the "kou rou bao"..turn out that it is not bad, due to maybe i put too much dark soya sauce, it turn out to be a little bitter..after rounds and rounds of testing and adding some other seasonings, the bitter taste was gone..

really thank God for revealing this area of insecurity in me..it further remind me that all the more i must put my security in Christ in every area of my life..uptill now, i still need a few days to get over this and meditate on the Word of God..seriously, it is really a small matter(to other ppl)..to me, it is like a huge prob..and the prob had alrdy been settled..but im still not at peace with myself..even my supervisor say it is not a big matter,just need to make some changes and move on..which is very very true..give me a few days more..and i will use these few days to reflect and pray..but..there is something..MONDAY IS MY COURSE EXAM!!sigh.........

this is one of the very-few-no-"hahas"-and-"LOLs"-post..cos really no mood to laugh..and tmr lynn lao shi is going to hear us sing the super difficult song Liang Jing Ru - Wu Tiao Jian Wei Ni..esp the adlib part..feeling a little stressed now..so ya..1st update after 1 month and yet im posting such yucky post..so sorry ppl..i will blog again once i feel better..

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