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reflections..

3:08 PM

15/10

ytd nite..was reflecting after reading a book..

I think all these times, God is changing my heart..after reading, I realized there are some idols in my heart that I refused to let go..idols not meaning a statue or image..for me..it is more of issues regarding my life..God is slowly revealing them to me..it is real hard to submit and surrender all of them to God..serious..esp im a stubborn person..i mean..of cos I know that God's ways and tots are higher than that of mine..but..when it come to trust..it is another issue..head and heart knowledge is diff..trusting requires faith..who dun like to make your own decisions?who like to take the path of faith?I like God to make everything crystal clear to me before I make a decision..BUT..if it is so easy, the bible wld not describe a Christian life is like walking thru a narrow gate..on the other hand, it is not easy but it does stretches our faith..and help us to trust Him more and more..i think God is doing some onion peeling work in me..he is peeling away the wrong focus, tots, desires, etc of my life bit by bit..painful..really..

Idols in my life=existence of distractions..the idols caused me to lose focus on God..cause me to focus more on my life issues..cause me to think that all these issues are more impt than God the Creator who is the One who knows wat I need best..instead of fixing my eyes on Him, I give my attention to the issues in my life..it is only "ME, MYSELF and I"..how selfish I am..

After that, I prayed..you know sometimes when you pray a certain prayer too often, it becomes more of like a ritual..using the same words, blah blah..praying indifferently..lacking the conviction and believe..i think im guilty of that..really..but ytd nite, my prayer is not the same like any other prayer..really..it was more like a heart to heart talk with God..verbalizing all my tots..and how wrong I had been..seeking His forgiveness..and praise Him just simply becos He is the Great I Am..after praying..i know the process of onion peeling is not done yet..more to come in the future or even as time passes by..cos im still learning to submit to God all the above I had mentioned..

Really..nothing is more impt than loving God with all my heart, soul, mind and strength..and im still learning to abide in Him..and I want to focus my entire being on Him..the Almighty God..to continue to love and believe Him..simply because He is my Abba Father..and I..His child.....oh God..change my heart......

"He who has faith has...an inward reservoir of courage, hope, confidence, calmness, and assuring trust that all will come out well - even though to the world it may appear to come out most badly."

B. C. Forbes

"And you shall love the Lord your God out of and with your whole heart and out of and with all your soul (your life) and out of and with all your mind (with your faculty of thought and your moral understanding) and out of and with all your strength. This is the first and principal commandment."

Mark 12:30

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