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6:24 AM

19/10

ah.. woke up at 10am plus today.. din go for biz mandarin.. haha..

then went to sch for micro A pract..hmm.. not that bad.. much much easier compared to inorganic chemistry.. but ah.. i broke my microscope slide! ah! but nvm.. luckily majority of the smear is still there.. phew..

then the quests ok lah.. not that bad.. haha.. now at com lab doing E survey..

straight after the pract, i check my hp and found that there are 2 miss calls.. so i called back.. my mum told me that tonite she and my dad wld want to talk to me.. i know wat happen.. hai.. how come unnecessary probs keep on coming to me? it is not a prob 1 loh.. but they like to magnify it.. giving me extra burden and pressure and stress.. hello.. i got my own probs loh.. why cant they be more understanding? i realy feel very suffocated.. exams, etc..... enuff is enuff... how come keep on giving me probs that can just be solve if they are not that demanding? they are not understanding at all... cant communicate with them.. i feel so stress, suffocated..i feel like abandoning everything, exams, probs, stress, etc.. and go to a quiet place.. spending time without having to bother abt anything..i just want peace... peace.. peace.. can i have it..? im very scared that i will just turn cold and become unfeeling to all the things around me... pray that that day wun come.. i still want the old eileen to be back and remain eileen forever.. not someone that is cold-blooded.. will i sink into depression? shit! i dun want that!sigh~~~... God.. give me your strength.. hide me under your wings.. protect me from the evil ones.. God.. save me from all the agony... that Lord.. in times of trials, im still clear and know that God will nv leave me... or God... take me home?

NO! WAT AM I THINKING? HOW CAN I GO HOME WITH SO MANY THING UNFULFILL? GOD WUN ALLOW THAT.. im going to be strong.. and carry on.. to fulfil that destiny that God has for me... God.. dun leave me... uphold me with your hands... deliver me from all troubles... thank you Lord.. i still have You to cling on.. knowing that You are my Shelter and my Refuge..

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