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6:02 PM

25/8

hi ppl!!!blog today cos thought that there's alot of thing to share...very long..take ur time to read k...hee...(coloured text is my opinions)

took a cab to sch today....woke up late again... :P haha...got a terrible shock when learnt that phy chem quiz is from chapt 1-8..diao..lol..took the quiz half way then i saw a flash...i tot some1 is taking fotos..then i look around..left and right...then........suddenly...."ROAR"...i got a shock of my life (again)!!!it is thunder...very diao....haha...

then went for IMB lecture...lecturer talk abt viagra...haha...it made the ppl in the whole lecture hall go mad...lol...so funny...haha..

then com skills...i bought 10 lollipop and a pkt of chewy sweets..wanted to thank Jamie and Joash for returning me the book...ah..thanks!!if not have to pay for the bk ah...also thank tse hui for being my walking fone bk...haha..hee...teacher talked abt conflict managemt...very interesting...find that all the skills i use before and they are very effective!!!!!!!but of course do fail sometimes...conflict managemt can help me to counsel ppl better...hee...always counsel ppl...haha..

then after com skills, almost the whole class "chiong" to Blk K for the BGR talk..haha...scared no seats mah...but we realised that we reached too early(result of kiasuism)...rm haven open...haha...then i called kar hian..told him im in nursing blk...but then he told me he at the swimming pool...too bad..i tot can see him 1...we are still very early for the talk...so i ask gwen wanna go swimming pool anot..lol..i so lame...then i told her my friend kar hian is a handsome guy..then she went," really really ah??" haha..so funny..then both of us and the class went to the swimming pool..(actually i just want to go find kar hian lah)..lol...then we enter the pool area..haha..i was searching for KH...i told tse hui abt him...cos he was from our pri sch...then tse hui also got excited...haha...lol...but then tse hui din bring student card..so cant enter...sigh...but me and gwen was like looking out for KH...then i wave at some1 in the pool who i tot was KH....haha..gwen also waved...we both waved..haha..then i heard, "Eileen!!!" i turn and realise that KH was at the other end of the pool...oh man...so pai seh...wave wrongly..haha...then i went over and talk to him...etc...then we went back the rm loh..
****kar hian is not my lover or crush or anything...he is 1 of my closest friend...duh..known him since pri 1...haha...

then go for the talk..realise that only 25 ppl can go..lol..we queue the 1st..of cos MB0402 got the priority lah...haha...then i sit beside cho ching...

the one who conducted the talk is called samuel...he gave us a pc of pp..and told us to write down wat is love to us...this is wat i wrote...

what does love means to me??
Love is patient, love is kind..
It does not boast and does not envy.it is not proud, jealous or selfish..
(from the bible..but cant remmeber most of it)

Love is committmt,trust and understanding..
Love means showing care,concern and attention even to the ppl that you dun like...

Love does not neccessarily involves BGR....
In fact, it shld be shown to every1...

Love never fails...(just like Christ love)
Faith, hope and love...
But the greatest of these three is LOVE....

well...my friend ever ask me this quest...haha...well..i really want to love every1 around me...showing them concern & care whenever they need...find that i have neglected that cos of study...this is not the way,eileen...cant neglect that..whenever you do that,some1 will get hurt...this is my self-reflections...hee...

haha...then samuel compare between LOVE and LUST/INFATUATION...i always believe that there is no such thing call "love at 1st sight"...this only happen in tv...haha...of course..there is no perfect person on earth loh..cant have the best of both worlds...right??well...must be REALISTIC when it comes to choosing partners...haha...come on...love cant survive on feelings alone...there are so many other more factors lo...like personality,common interest,gd communications(i mean really open to talk abt problems and not keeping them to yourself.this can lead to misunderstanding if you keep quiet..the other party may think that you are angry with him/her but in fact you are angry abt something else...then the other party will be very poor thing..keep on thinking and thinking..spare a tot for your partners lah..haha),etc....

then sam give out the "wat do i want my life partner to be like?" paper....haha...i reveal abit here k....haha...(dun get me wrong!!!im just sharing...no other intentions!!!!haha..)

what do i want my life partner to be like?
personality: mature thinking, knows when to be emotional and rational,not possessive,compassionate,kind-hearted,understanding,direct,sociable,caring,sensitive(but not overly plsss)humourous(include lameness and crappy talks also..haha...eh..i cant get along well with a bkworm k..lol),seeks self-improvemt,optimistic most of the time,knows how to respect and honour me as well as others,leadership qualities with understanding and empathism..(dunno got such word anot..but nvm...you all know wat i mean..haha),etc...

interest/hobbies: common interest like ball games,cooking,etc...or even chatting with each other...haha..

appearance: eh..dunnit to be handsome...as long as i feel comfortable looking at can le...haha..

haha...above is just a brief summary...lol..those who want to know more..can ask me..haha...

then i think sam talk abt creative dating ideas...haha..personally i like idea no 1 and i like idea 7 very much...idea 7 is so sweet...oh man...i think i would be very "gan dong" man...

then i think it is break time(got a hard time recalling)..haha..i had a cup of coffee and some refreshmt..(mizael,thanks for the kopi!!)haha..i was quite quiet during break..cos i was thinking thru and reflecting on myself seriously abt the talk...can see that my mind in some kind of outer space although i was standing up...

then the talk went on..talk abt AIDS and STDS...i was indignant after hearing sam read the newspp article on the raping case...how can those ppl do these??they are a bunch of b**t**d*!!!a young girls' future totally collapsed and ruined just for their short-lived pleasure...if they want...then go geylang lah..wat for do it to such a young girl???inhuman...ARGH...(sorry ppl..gets abit agitated)..

then talk abt sex protection...learn a very gd and true phrase..."no such thing as safe sex,only safer sex.." but how safe can it be??still thinks that it is NOT right to have premarital sex...nobody can change MY stand on THIS..(lol..sound so serious..but this is a serious matter!!!)then sam ask how come a person can still get HIV or STDS even with condom on...then our class mizael shared....haha..i feel that it is nothing wrong...this is to educate all of us mah..only thru being open to knowledge and sensitive issue,then can we learn and prevent doing the wrong things right??hmm...haha...

then talk abt the 5 love languages..haha..i think mine is little bit of every of the 5 languages...lol...i talk abit abt this k..below is that "a little bit" of everything that i choose..i mean below is wat i choose for each languages

5 love languages
words of affirmation: encouragemt,compliments,expresses feelings towards me...

quality time: doing things together,sits and listens to me,learns to do an activity i enjoy,shares with me meaningful events in his life..

receiving gifts: makes me things,surprises me with little tokens of his affection,rem and creat special occasions with a gift(gift not that impt lah..but it is wat you do together that matters)..

acts of svc:helps me with things,cooks for me(this will make me very very very very touch)..

physical:holds my hand,hugs me for no reason,holds me when i cry....

haha...i put all these up is just to share with you all ba!!as friends..we shld understand each other better mah...right??

***i think i got the program list mess up...but nvm..it is not impt..lol..haha..

****my emphasis:Love in a BGR nits a strong friendship(understand each other very well,able to really confide in each other watever the prob is & giving advices,trust,etc) as a firm foundation.

then went home..cerelia asked me wanna go thailand do community work...eh..frankly..im very interested..cos like i had said,i have been neglecting this area of social work..i want to help the ppl there..comparing my life and theirs,i feel that im much more fortunate,blessed and love..so y not extend this blessings and love that we have to those out there who nits a touch from you?little acts(eg:teaching them english or building something for them) will makes them feel that they are cared for and realised there is love and hope in this world...i believe this world is not totally cold..there is still warmth...but this got to be started with us...right friends??hee..sounds like giving lectures..but thats wat i think...haha..diao..

BUT then..my parents dun allow...then they din give me the reasons..my dad shouted on the fone,"i say NO means NO!!dun ask y!!!there is no reasons!" the worse thing is..my mum feels and act the same way also...they say i acted without their consent..then i argue," did i??if i did...i wun bother to ask you and papa!!!!"i feel so maligned..i feel that there is a reason for everything right..then they nv give me reasons..how can i be convinced?and how can i communicate with them in future?then my mum take another mistake that i had commit in the PAST(and i mean PAST) to compare with this thailand thingy..how can she do that??i argue," cant you be more objective and focus on this matter only??!!pls dun drag anything in!!" actually..i can also pull in their past mistakes loh..but i dun want even though she did..cos i think it is not going to help loh...then suddenly my tears flow out...man..im crying...im not crying cos i want to gain pity loh..(i wun do that loh..i have my dignity)..it is tears of anger and disappointmt..angry that they are not objective!!!disappoint that they are not supportiv of me..of cos i know they are worried abt my safety,etc..but cant they use a softer apprach instead of shouting at me first??and i want REASONS!!im not rebellion loh..i just want things to be talk out using reasons and logic..not unreasonable or tell-you-shut-up-immediately approach...doing social work is a gd thing mah..i cried and cried and cried...feel so disappointed and angry with them...my parents..1st thing 1st,i ask them very nicely abt the trip k...then my dad raised his voice over the fone just like that.."NO means NO"..wah...im so pissed off..this "NO means NO" thingy doesn't work on me loh...i want REASONS..they can say,"ok..xueting..i noe that you want to help them but i dun let you go is because......" this way...i will surely listen 1 loh..this also can bring me and my parents closer right???i dun think im in the wrong lo..hai...disappointed...not reasonable at all...feel damn lousy...

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