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Germaine's and ya mei's birthday..

4:32 PM

23/1

haha today is Germaine's and Ya mei's birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! hee hee..

hm.. today pastor Rony's sermon inspired me.. it is abt prayer.. i admit.. there are times i dun feel like praying.. or dun want to pray at all.. even if i do pray, sometimes i will just end it fast.. hmm.. i think it is time for a change.. shld pray until i feel like or want to pray.. praying is talking with God.. a 2 way thing.. not talking to God which is 1 way.. to develop a relationship with Him is thru prayer.. hmm..

sometimes, i really really think that my parents cant bear to let their son do housework.. or even simple packing.. and hello.. my brother is 17 this yr.. when ever there is things to do.. they come to me.. even the simplest thing of all.. like washing dishes.. i know my brother got better brain than me.. oh.. so better brain dun nit do housework lah isit? my brother can chat on the fone for 3hrs? and my parents just dun have a heart to ask him to do things.. which is totally unfair.. and they have to come and disturb me with the trivial matters when im doing my homework.. hello.. im doing homework.. so wat i do? i will just tell them, ' your son's hands is made of gold or silver or diamond? his hands are too precious so much so that he cant even touch the dishes isit or his hands is even more delicate than tofu?'

im not trying to be rude here ok.. hah.. then they will come up with all sorts of excuses.. which is totally irrelevant and turn one big round and put the blame on me.. wateevr it is, they are just trying to cover up the FACT that they want to shield their son.. ARGHH.. im super angry.. 17 yrs old and cant even put his own clothings into the washing machine? dun need hand wash leh.. it is machine wash.. and worse still.. they are spoiling him loh.. a guy shld have the leadership and initiative.. but it looks like im the one with the guy's role eh? oh well.. that explains why i have a stronger and tougher character than my brother.. and much much more independent than him.. dun need mummy here mummy there..

so im wondering how he is going to survive in army.. let him go thru the toughest training.. to toughen him up.. guys shld be toughen up.. if not next time how to be the head of the household like wat God has commanded? no leadership, no initiative.. how to lead the family? then career how? working is not like studying leh.. when you just bury your head in books.. dun care whether you got leadership anot.. as long as you got brain can already.. but working is diff.. more often.. you will be given task to do.. or even be in charge of certain projects.. ARGH.. how to survive like that huh?

oh well.. mayb can say i think too much.. but one factor is going to lead to another.. and they may affect your life greatly.. obviously.. he is still not mature yet.. im not saying im mature or wat.. but seriously.. it is really really annoying and irritating.. ARGH.. yes.. im protective of my brother.. but i do know when to protect and when to let go at appropriate times.. if not he is not going to learn.. oh man.. really cant stand mummy's boy.. thats why those guys who are the only child in the family and yet is tough impresses me alot..

somehow i had decided if i were to go to university, i will stay in the hostel.. if can afford lah.. having ppl taking you for granted is horrible.. oh.. they know that you are always there.. rain or shine.. so nvm lah.. just relax.. ARGH.. cant stand this attitude..

hmm.. tml will be staying in sch till quite late i think.. abt 8pm plus? pray that God will give me strength!!

posted by cookoxt31 on 4:32 PM
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