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BrEaK...

1:28 PM

26/10

whahha.. just back from imb mugging.. having dinner and break at the same time... haha.. save time mah...

i dun like to let my mind to be quieten down.... when that happens, feelings and tots will just swallowed me up......... and i will become very emo....... when i become very very emo......... i will start to do things that are irrational..... which is not wat i want........ i want the rational eileen......... the eileen that is able to think carefully....... who uses head rather than heart to make decisions............ generally..... im quite a rational person... but when things happen and i start to get extremely emo.............. the normal eileen just disappear............ and will begin to do things without thinking abt the consequences........ hello...... this is really not eileen..... and after doing the irrational thing....... when im more clear-headed......... i will find my actions silly and childish........... which i cant even believe i actually did those things......... but the fact is i had done it........ so the only thing i cld do is to learn a lesson from it and try not to make the same mistakes again.... why do i say "try"? and not "must"?? cos......... i dun really have the confident......... see how contradicting it is?? i hate this character of mine...........

sigh~~~~ somehow i feel so guilty.......hurting so many ppl at 1 go........ eileen... it is not your fault......... ya.. rite........ i have got to play a part too........... God....... help me come out of this....... really need Your strength...... You are my source of strength and i can always depend on You.... cos You are my Rock... and i claimed upon Your promises......... thank you Lord for bringing me so far...... thank you Lord for upholding me with Your hand... and i know You will never fail us...... if not for God.... i wld not be wat i am today...... compare those ppl who cant even 1 proper meal everyday...... we are already very fortunate and blessed....... God.... thank you so much for Your work in my life.......

Through it all

You are forever in life...
You see me thru the seasons...
Cover me with Your hands...
And lead me in Your righteousness....
And i look to You.....
And i wait on You....

I sing to You Lord...
A hymn of love...
For Your faithfulness to me...
I'm carried in...
Everlasting arms...
You never let me go...
Through it all....

Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...
Hallelujah...

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